65...64...63...62...61...60.
Sixty days. Almost exactly two months until my life changes completely. A fellow future Peace Corps volunteer posted a Hugh Laurie quote: "It's a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you're ready. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. There is almost no such thing as ready. There is only now. And you may as well do it now. Generally speaking, now is as good a time as any." Fitting, I suppose. I also remember that Lemony Snicket said, "If we wait until we're ready we'll be waiting forever." And in 60 days, its ready-or-not, here I come!
Its all getting more and more real. I have already faced goodbyes. And in my heart, I know its not goodbye, but its more of a "see you later." But, let me tell you, they have felt like goodbyes. 2.5 years is a long time to be away. And the goodbyes have been really difficult. I had to say goodbye to my grandma, through tears, the day after Thanksgiving. I had to say goodbye to two very good high school friends over Christmas break. I had to say goodbye to Matt just over a week ago and to Nick yesterday morning. Not easy stuff. The more I think about it, the more I can't stop thinking about how much will be different when I get back.
But amidst the sad wave of goodbyes, most days, I'm so excited. I'm incredibly nervous, and I know that realistically, these could be some of the toughest days/weeks/years of my life. The transition will be grueling. And it will be beautiful and fruitful and wonderful. I can't wait to meet new people and to live life differently. So, for the next 60 days, I will continue to attempt to mentally prepare, and get ready to dive in head-first to this next adventure.
Sixty days. Almost exactly two months until my life changes completely. A fellow future Peace Corps volunteer posted a Hugh Laurie quote: "It's a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you're ready. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. There is almost no such thing as ready. There is only now. And you may as well do it now. Generally speaking, now is as good a time as any." Fitting, I suppose. I also remember that Lemony Snicket said, "If we wait until we're ready we'll be waiting forever." And in 60 days, its ready-or-not, here I come!
Its all getting more and more real. I have already faced goodbyes. And in my heart, I know its not goodbye, but its more of a "see you later." But, let me tell you, they have felt like goodbyes. 2.5 years is a long time to be away. And the goodbyes have been really difficult. I had to say goodbye to my grandma, through tears, the day after Thanksgiving. I had to say goodbye to two very good high school friends over Christmas break. I had to say goodbye to Matt just over a week ago and to Nick yesterday morning. Not easy stuff. The more I think about it, the more I can't stop thinking about how much will be different when I get back.
But amidst the sad wave of goodbyes, most days, I'm so excited. I'm incredibly nervous, and I know that realistically, these could be some of the toughest days/weeks/years of my life. The transition will be grueling. And it will be beautiful and fruitful and wonderful. I can't wait to meet new people and to live life differently. So, for the next 60 days, I will continue to attempt to mentally prepare, and get ready to dive in head-first to this next adventure.
